It's Van here! I hope everything is fine!

2025 was a whole new adventure in my practice journey. I started my readings with my friends in college and boy we have some discussions to make lol.

So i have this friend and we became so closer this past year. She's incredible and funny, but has some serious stuff going around her ( i don't really feel comfortable sharing any private information about her, keep in mind) and we started the readings when she's in a very bad place at the time. The situation was about someone in her life, which clearly didn't want to be too involved and in the spreads came a lot of warning and be cautious over this person, this person is not your person and well my friend got a little bit confident that my deck was not sure because i'm still a newbie in the practice and i told her that could be wrong (never too wrong though) and got herself involved in some pretty mess kind of situationship. 

My people, IT WAS MESSY, like, not, omg is this person cheating on me (even though there're not in a "serious" relationship), i'm telling messy like this person stole money and put my family member in prison, after killing my senior dog kind of messy. And i got so scared, we did weekly readings and everytime got deeper and darker and well. **** hit the fan sometimes... I remember one specific reading where she cried over me because we got The Tower three times in a roll, i'm still felling really bad for her and really hope this year be good or just normal. 

Honestly, i felt super confident and there was times i got everything right and sometimes i made horrible mistakes (i'm exagerating nothing too big or too worrying), but i kept going further and now i guess my journey with the Major are kind of complete (it's never really over so). 

2026 is going to be my journey with the Minor and sincerely i'm kind of confused and i don't really know how to start properly. I'm trying to divide my studying process and majorly trying to make a logical sequence (i'm getting there i guess). But at this time, everything fells complicated so please any advice will be a joy. 

A lot of things happened in this semester. I got a job as a teacher and I'm having my final exams in college (not the finals of the course just for the semeste). All of this means that I did not have enough time to focus only in the readings, which is kind of sad, but i decided to start over (not all over again, but catching up where I stopped). Even though with all of this I managed to keep doing some reading, I have tried to do some with my significant other and well, just for some of context he's the kind of guy that is skeptical about everything, and even if he made a little fun of me in the beginning I guess right now he respect it. 

Well, as being someone so closed about almost everything, it was hard to have some information (this is a belief here, if you don't permit people to see, than no one will ever be able to see it), each time I questioned The Emperor appeared, and I laughed almost every time, because this card is exactly the kind of person he is.

I got more confident, which is great, but I still practice more and learn more so I can get accurate readings. And guys I pretend to bring more stuff, I just don't have that time yet 😅😅😅

I hope everything is okay with y'all

Ok, i have a lot, really a lot to tell about this two (or three months). I know i promised to make my second and third analysis questions, but so much things happened (the end of this semester is a roller-coaster of crap and shitty ate same time wonderful and joyfully things were happening making my life really busy. THINGS ARE COMPLETLY INSANE OVER HERE!!!). So i decided to make a dump on the readings i recently did, starting for my second question (this will be divided in two parts).

•            Should I Look For The Love Of My Life Yesterday?
  • I would like to explain myself on why i did this one. Relationships are difficult to me and since my first boyfriend i have a lot of confidence and trust issues that's why i'm extremely direct when i want or need something, i'm in my second serious relationship, he's amazing and i love him with all my heart so this question came from my bestie and i thought: "well is a good one for practice and why should i be afraid?" so i did and the answer was.... well... surprisingly what i expect ( and what i wanted).
  • The first arcana i pick up was Temperance, i got really confused for a second, but after thinking a little i kind getting where this coming from, so as i said this arcana appears to tell me that i need to be calm and develop my patience skills (which i really need) regardless wanting true love or about the urge of evaluating my current relationship (the feeling i had that day).
  • The second one was The Tower and as soon it appeared everything made sense in my head. The Tower gave me a signal which made questioning myself. Do i really want to destroy or put everything i worked so hard to build with this man at risk just because i believe, or in this case, i need to believe that true love happens only in one way? If my answer is yes, then i would have to make my choice and put my two feet on the ground about it. Honestly i really thought on this one for two or three days, what it meant to me or what could possibly say to me.
  • The next one literally slapped me in face lol. I got The Strength. For sure i needed to think about my feelings on my boyfriend and on what i think love is supposed to be. I'm not going to find the love of my life in a trip. Relationships are extremely complex and it's something that demands a lot from you and your partner, that's why you need to make a decision, if you decided to leave and really go looking for this love of your life, than you should stay strong in your word and be prepared to lose everything. If not, it's time to grow up and take the time and confidence your relationship need to achive what you think true love means. And this two options need extremaly strength. But no, you're not gonna find the love of your life yesterday, because he's probably on your side today.

  POSITIONS                                                                                                     

THE STRENGHT (III)                                                                                          

THE TEMPERANCE (I)                                                                             THE TOWER (II)                    

• Advice For My Day.
  • After each session of questions i tried to get my advice for the day/week.
  • For that week i got The Sun which really helped me with the intrusive thoughts i had for a while. Essentially what i get from this arcana was a big everything is going to be okay, things will be better, just trust yourself and always keep your feith. Nothing is eternal, everything change.

• Will I Get This Job Opportunity Until The End Of The Month?
  • I got the job. This experience was, at least, sending shivers right down my spine even now, i ended up getting two job opportunities and was really difficult to choose since the two were good ones. I had the message of my first reading engraved in my head and in my heart. I worked it out with my boyfriend and got the time to understand each other a little bit more (a lot of conversations and monologues about our feelings on our routine). Things started to look good, when i question this i was nervous to start in my actual job.
  • I got The Death in this pick up, right in the moment i got the message, in order to get what i wanted things would have to finish from my side (things i had to do effectively get done) and things that are out of my control (i ended up discover that another person had to be dismissed for me start to work).
  • The second one was The Judgment, another metaphoric slap in my face. Evaluate things in order to make your choice! When you get your answer be calm and try to develop the patient needed for this kind of bureaucracy so this opportunity can accutally born in the right way.
  • Then i got The Star and again i learn how anxious i can be lol. It's already yours, but you need to make sure to be patient since this one has a lot of bureaucracies behind the paper. There's process that need to be fully terminated by me and that do not depend on me. But, the good luck is on my side and this opportunity should bring me a lot professional development.

POSITIONS                                                                                                            

THE STAR (III)                                                                                                                         

THE DEATH(I)                                                     THE JUDGMENT (II)                                                                              

  So this is just some of the questions, i'm preparing to do a ✨Boyfriend Session✨ since i started to pratice with him and somehow is funny but deep to. Take your time, read and please feel free to correct me or to elucidate anything.

Com Amor,

Van

Hope y'll are fine.

So today i'm gonna talk about my first real Tarot reading, btw the journal was such a good tool to organize my brain and helped me focous on the questioning process itself. I used the three spreed as my first shot, i liked to use it for the simples questions (i only did three questions and i focused on making "safe questions"). I'm gonna transcript what i wrote in my journal, i think it'll be easier to visualize how i did it.

• For the next three months, will i get a good job?
  • After made my first spreed, i tried to visualize my question once i started to pick my Arcanas. I got surprised but not upset. I got the moon, the lovers and the temperence. First of all i tried to make each card one interpretation, just to assimilate their major advices and the way i felt about them. 
  • The Moon: I get that as a sounding and understanding yes, i know this Arcana is really deep and speaks volumes about our inner voices and how we are truly feeling about so that's why for the second thought i was more like: "Yes, but do not get this as something that for sure it will happen, even though is, probably, a confident yes, the universe is unpredictable and almost everything change in the course of life."
  • The Lovers: Here it comes my problem with this Arcana reading, since i'm not thinking about love or such things, i felt confused on why this card was preseting it self. I tried to think on the other aspect of this Arcana, which means an a big decision might be coming a head.
  • The Temperence: In this last Arcana i tried to undestend the other two and the outcome that probably will happen in a mix with the Temperence, so in the end i figure it out that yes, in the next three months i highly will get a good job, but this will leads me to a decision that probably would be a life changing thing, something that will divide the way i'm living right now, but until this happen i need to have patience and when it happen i'll need to balance things out, even my decisions will take a time to reflect and to analyze if it's a good idea.

                                                                                                                                                        Position 3: The Temperence

                                                                                                                    Position 1: The Moon                                             Position 2: The Lovers

The other two questions i'll be posting on the next week, i would like to analyze each one of my questions with patience.

What y'all think of it? Did i make a good job or my reading is wrong? For the process of picking yup each Arcana i tried to mentally visualize my questions. I took a really good time making the spreed, then getting into the major aspects of the Arcana, i did not rush anything what made me feel confident over what i was reading, but right now i'm not really sure about it simply because i found The Moon such a difficult Arcana to read (this one is in my favourite hall) and comprehend what it's speakins in the reading. 

Com Amor,

Van

I hope all of you are fine.

Today, guess in this dawn, i'm gonna talk about some methods of how to spreeds cards i'm learning.

Well, finally i can start to do proper readings [internally freaking out a little bit 🤯].  Honestly, since i finished my journey with the Major Arcanas i'm panicking over make real "grown-up" readings, i mean study the cards was so fun and kind of "safe" and my mentor said somenthing that keeps appering in my mind: "You have to be responsible now, it the real deal. Practice and be ready". Be ready for what? I get the part where you can't fluffed up in this part but c'mon this was definitely not an encouragement at all, right?

Anyways here am i, lol. Almost 3:00 AM and i'm here reading books after books and watching videos and thinking if i'll ever going to keep up with this, i'm thiking of creating my own personal datasheet over my future readings, so i can keep them on track and see my development, am i thking too much? Or this is a good idea?

There's not much to tell on the methods itself, i'm currently studying the easiest ways to start the spreed, i already have studied the quick insight, the celtic cross and some others [any advice or tips would be good 😉], tomorrow morning i'm thinking of doing the first real deal grown-up reading and finally let my newbie title to be gone [yes, i'm that excited, yet terrified 😆] but i'm not really sure, what y'all think? How was your first time?

Of course, i'm not ready to read for another person, look i'm not doing it until i get confident enough so i don't mess up or make huge mistakes, when it comes to read for someone else i prefer to fluff up my future and myself first [mentor says that if i'm not responsible enouh it's not a good idea to make the readings].

So till this time come, it's going to be me and all of you guys [hell yeah all of you are coming in this with me 😅] and in this moment i want some serious and point by point critics which i'm counting on y'all to give.

Jokes aside i really waited so long for this to happen, i don't know about you guys, but i was feeling like a child learning all of this. Specially when i didn't get a certain card and stayed with it in my head for really long periods of time [ one month was my max], i felt kind of... dumb? Idk. But right now, after learning properly and making a huuuge upfront step on my study schedule perhaps things will be easier.

Tomorrow i promise to post a follow up from my soon to be first real grown up reading and if you're interested i can post my datasheet so you can analyze it.

Update on my cute box: Decided to glue some dried flowers from my garden on the lid, there's little almost nothing but i promise to keep  a follow up once it's fully complete!

Com amor,

Van

I took a time from my collage studies and decided to relax and study more about Tarot, in my last post i promised to show my little cute wood box where i keep my deck protected. My father helped me with this little project and i'm so so so glad and proud of myself (after a lot of fingers pinched over small nails my wooden box is finally complete!), we used Ipê wood to make it and the color is just *chef kiss* i'm really happy.

Well, i'm not showing inside completely (feels to intimate) but this is how it turns out. Probably i'm going to attempt some kind of carving on top but idk how to do it.

Well since i'm going to add some dried flowers on the lid here's the recent updates on my wooden box (and yes, it's glitter on the corners). In the future i hope to make a post talking about how i "clean" my deck for my readings and the herbs i use to keep spiturally protected.

Today i'm here to express, mostly, make questions and get some kind of advice from other fellow readers with more experience.

Right now i'm almost finishing my study on the Major Arcana, and this journey has been interesting and i dare to say caotic too. I've wasted my entire college vacation dedicated in learning and feeling my deck cards and right now the connection between me and my deck is no joke, seriously. Probably i'm slowly falling into some kind of madness the context of this sentence was in one of my readings were i could actually hear the arcana talking, like actually feeling their voices in my ears, my mom (who's mentor-ish me) said it's normal and makes part of the bonding process,  so i was like ok fun and frecking scary (please someone tell me i'm not going insane). 

After i went back to my college and academic stuff i gave myself some time, i really needed that since i'm in a shitty place right now, not gonna detail everything but let's just say The Hermit (this card is been a total pain in the ass with me and idk why, any advice?) was pulled for about five times in a week. I can't figure out what this arcana want to tell me. But hey, learning process always involves tears and blood right?

Not to mention in this time i've made a wooden box to keep my deck safe and protected, (i'll probably share some photos if y'all are interested), i'm not gonna lie, i was extremely anxious for this step (i love do manual projects) and the next one is the Consagração (idk the word in english sorry 😞), which means in the next full moon mom and i are gonna make a pray and some other rituals to make this deck my tool (again idk how to explain properly). If you want to know more about it, i'll glady detail in how we do things like this.

I kind feel like i'm ready to step forward and make this huge learning process with the Minor Arcana, feel free to feed me with books, websites, method of learning and everything about it. It's a little bit sad since the time i passed with the major arcana made my life flip over entirely for good and for bad. I'm hoping this next step will go smoothly and calm.

Guys, i'm really in doubt about The Hermit, everything you could offer me will be appreciated.

Com amor,

Van

Today i'm gonna share the story about how i got my first deck and what i'm currently doing with it.

Everything started with a visit on my mom's friend house, she was about to help him with something in his family tapestry business, keep in mind his family runs the business in my town so they come here very often but they don't stay too much, and me and my sister decided to go together, idk if you i know but here in Brazil the gypsy community is strong and quite large so it's pretty common to see and interact with them (they majorly live in the north of the country but there's some in the south, where i live, too). So we got in to his house, my mom and his wife started to chat about the shop and sales, while i was looking into the ceiling which had this massive tapestry with a lot of signals and stuff (i really don't know what it was), i'm a really curious person so i questioned about it and they said that it was a representative image of their gods and stuff and i started to get even more curious and started to questioning more, but well they didn't fell comfortable enough to share more in detail, i guess, then i got quiet. After a while their granny entered the room and approached us and started to talk with my mom about the shop and how to keep their business while on road and how to avoid being robbed stuff like that, i'll admit i got bored and i decided to keep starring at the ceilling because the tapestry was too beautiful and it seemed to be alive, like there was blue and red then green and some white and flowers and threes, it was one of those things you can't stop looking even if you want. After doing the financial stuff and helping them with the system of online sales and shopping (apparently my sister build their online sales shop and she's helping since 2019), we were invited to take a break and eat, the hole family was together (pretty large one with six or eight brothers and all sharing one house) and my mom started to chat with the granny and she was talking about reading something and my sister told me she reads Tarot and that's how they found my mom and decided to keep her as their financial and legal consultant for about six years. In the past i was curious and studied about Tarot but i never felt the urge to keep studying, so i got close and started to listen more and more, granny was telling about this dream she had with me and my mom on my birthday that i had the entire universe in my hands and that if my mom didn't feel offended she would like to present me with a deck. Well, my mom was shocked but glad, she said it was okay, then she passed me this yellow box with a brend new deck and told me that she buyed this one in 2015 without knowing why, and perhaps the reason was to give it to me. I was pretty scared, but at the time i accepted in order to be respectful and kind since all the members of the family are kind to us. She look right into my eyes and said: "I'm so sorry, darling! I'm not gonna be present to see the beautiful path of your life, but i'll watch your steps when you left by this door." By the time i had no clue what that means, today i understand after a lot of things happend (she lefted the country to come back where she was born, my mom's friend told me the reason is she's going to die soon).

Ok this happend in 2020, they left the town one mouth after this and right now we don't have any contact, besides the little messege my mom's friend sended her in June telling about their granny. For two years my deck stayed my bookshelf, adimiting to myself that i was fucking terrify of it made part of my process to be close (don't get me wrong, things happend in the day brought the deck to my house, things that had never happen in my entire life. We got in 2023, i was walking in the city at night with my mom on the side walk in our left side there was this old lady, she got really close to me, put her arm on my and asked me to help her, i couldn't see her face and she was smelling roses, i accepted and then we walked a little bit ( i live in a town crossed by a river and at night my mom and i like to got into the border of the river so we can clean our feet, it's pretty normal, and no, it's not a polluted river) after we got into our spot which is basically the start of the river she left my arm and said: "Don't be afraid, touch once and you'll feel courage and curosity. Don't be afraid of my calling, because if i'm calling you there's a motive." My mom at this point put herself in front of me and started praying and telling her stuff, i fucking scarred, it was dark, i couldn't see nothing and the only light we had was from a old made from wood street light i was shivering and almost running away, this fucking lady entenred in the river and FUCKING DISAPPEARD, right in front of my eyes. This river in my town is known for have a lot rocks in the bottle and have a dangerously flow, i almost pissed my self, we didn't even stayed at there, my mom grab my hand and we started to run into one of the fisherman houses, after a while we got home. She sat with me and said: "Are you using that stuff that Miss Yasemine gave to you?" I said no and she replied: "Do it or things like these are gonna keeping happening."

Guys keep in you minds i'm not the type of person who believes in those things, honestly i always thought this **** is for crazy and for people who belive in astrology and stuff but i almost **** myself out of fear. It took me one month to recover and i'm still afraid to be in the same place again. I got really into Tarot in end of the year and no, this was no magic, enchantment or curse from his family.

So in the end, i'm studying Tarot, a got a new box and i pretend to do some things that in my religion are necessery to keep it clean and protected!