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Laying my Cards on the Table.


I had no idea what to expect the first time I cracked open a tarot deck. What on earth was I doing? There is nothing remotely woowoo about me that I should have a tarot deck in my hand.  Yet I found myself in one of 'those' shops filled with black candles, handmade creams and teas, interesting clothing mostly in black, gothic styles and pens shaped like leg bones. I bought one of those.  I feel it elevates everything I write to the level of interestingly witchy.    I ventured into the shop because I have an interesting and unusual friend and she is into tarot and because my life is painfully dull and I am dull right along with it I thought, why not spice things up a bit and buy a tarot deck?  I felt quite naughty, like I was coloring outside the lines. I liked it. It felt new and unknown. 

First deck was Dark Wood Tarot by Sasha Graham, illustrated by Abigail Larson. I had no clue what to look for in a deck. Fortunately the shop had many open decks for people to look through and I did like the art style (my tastes have since changed). So that dek and the leg bone pen came home with me.  

I live in a small, rural, Canadian town and the library had few books on tarot. I read all the books I could get through the library, even ordered a few in from distant branches. I purchased a tarot book. It's hard to know which are good and which not so much. I did research beforehand but taste in books is like taste in art and decks, to each their own. I bought a couple more decks and read the LWB that came with each. This took quite some time, well over a year and slowly a pattern emerged.  A pattern where I looked at a card, read the meaning and thought, get out of here!  Some cards and their prescribed meanings, okay, fine, not so bad, I can get on board. But others? No. No. Just no.  

It might help to know that I sometimes go with the flow. Until I think the flow is stupid, or it violates some code I hold dear and then the flow can flow off  and I'll go over here, on my own, in my own direction.  I have frustrated other tarot readers who have listened to me interpret a card and then, while waving the LWB at me told me I am doing it wrong. Wrong? I see no tarot police. I have heard of no wrong tarot charges being laid or fines being imposed.  In fact there was a time when Bad Things would happen to tarot readers and their ilk and that those things no longer happen is a bonus and win! So do I need to submit myself to some new rule maker who gets to decree the rules and laws of tarot reading - a new form of tarot tyranny? No I do not.  I reject the book wavers and finger waggers and tarot gatekeepers that I have encountered.  They likewise reject me because I frustrate them. I make the system messy. The Little White Book is now the Little MY Book - I write it as my gut, my intuition, my inner High Priestess leads me. 

In no way do I consider myself remotely qualified to do a reading for anyone.  With  the few people I practice on (friends who love me and must submit to my whims) I declare outright that I do not and cannot tell their future and neither can a deck of cards. Their future is in their own hands, determined by their own choices. However, the tarot can help them hone in on and focus on issues that maybe they are not seeing or deliberately ignoring.  The tarot can highlight an area that really needs their attention and consideration. Out of respect for every individual's autonomy I always make it clear that what they do is up to them. But if they are feeling a little hung up, the tarot might nudge them in the right direction and if someone asks for a reading, it is likely safe to assume that a nudge is what they're looking for. 

I keep notes, as flashes of insight occur to me. Sometimes my excitement at having a tarot breakthrough overwhelms me and I start blabbing to my husband, who glazes over and appears to enter a state of suspended animation as I talk tarot.  Like I glaze over when he tells me how he's rebuilding a transmission.  I hope to use this blog space as a place to jot out my unorthodox tarot observations and interpretations. I don't know who could possibly benefit from looking in on my random thought process.  Me, I suppose.  The entries will have no order, will be largely incoherent and probably contradict each other. I reserve the right to be all those things. I am happy to share these thoughts with anyone who braves the chaos in my head. Welcome! And ye be warned! 

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Chariot

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This all sounds remarkably sane to me!  🙂

Tarot is, I suspect, what each reader/practitioner makes of it, and you seem to have honed in on the skill of 'intuitive' reading.  Plus you have picked up on what tarot can do for a person ...give them a nudge in the direction they need to go, or make them aware of something they weren't aware of before (but makes sense to them, once it's pointed out.)  Tarot gives a reader/querent insight more than anything else, really.  The future can be 'predicted' to a certain extent ...many of us have certainly had that happen.  However, we often don't realise it till after it happens.  Then it's, "Oh, THAT'S what those cards were all about!"

I once got a reading from another person (at a 'fair' kind of event) that was detailed and so accurate (dates, numbers, time frame, description of the people involved) about something she predicted would happen out of the blue, four months later.  It did. I can honestly say yes, the tarot can certainly predict the future in the hands of a skilled reader.  In this particular case, I did nothing after I received the reading to bring this event about, so it wasn't an influence on my own behaviour.  It was an accurate 'future' prediction.  And pretty stunning.

 

However, I am not skilled enough to do this kind of reading for myself or anybody else, so, like you, I use tarot to alert me to trends, and to analyse my feelings and other factors that are in my life already.   For insight, tarot is remarkably helpful.  

Glad you  made that first leap. Was it quite a long time ago?  Have you been at this a while?  I bought my first tarot deck (RWS) at a 'head shop' as well.  That term probably dates me. 🙂

 

Rootwood

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@Chariot Thank you for your comment.  I consider my foray into tarot fairly recent, around 2 years now. Prior to that tarot was nowhere on my radar.  In fact my history is one of tarot being of the devil, along with Ouija boards and transcendental meditation.  Hanging around head shops was definitely a no-go! So did you date yourself? I have a childhood memory of being very small, perhaps 3, standing on the front seat of the car beside my mom as she drove a big block Oldsmobile at 100 mph to town, steering with one hand and smoking a cigarette with the other. Because second hand smoke, car seats and seatbelts weren't a thing yet and you could save a child from flying through the windshield just by blocking them with your arm.  There , now I've dated myself ! (I'd kill to have the big block Olds now, not that I could afford the gas. But oh, the fun!) 

Chariot

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7 hours ago, Rootwood said:

@Chariot Thank you for your comment.  I consider my foray into tarot fairly recent, around 2 years now. Prior to that tarot was nowhere on my radar.  In fact my history is one of tarot being of the devil, along with Ouija boards and transcendental meditation.  Hanging around head shops was definitely a no-go! So did you date yourself? I have a childhood memory of being very small, perhaps 3, standing on the front seat of the car beside my mom as she drove a big block Oldsmobile at 100 mph to town, steering with one hand and smoking a cigarette with the other. Because second hand smoke, car seats and seatbelts weren't a thing yet and you could save a child from flying through the windshield just by blocking them with your arm.  There , now I've dated myself ! (I'd kill to have the big block Olds now, not that I could afford the gas. But oh, the fun!) 

Yep, we're probably more or less equally dated!  I remember head shops with glow in the dark posters of 'Middle Earth.'  That's how old I am.  

AlanK

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I totally get the initial uncertainty and curiosity you felt with tarot. 😁

As for me, I remember my first time with tarot. I was excited but also a bit nervous. I didn't know what to expect, but I was drawn to the beautiful artwork and the mysterious allure of the cards. Over time, I realized that tarot isn't about rigid rules or predicting the future; it's a tool for introspection and personal growth. Like you, I've had my disagreements with traditional interpretations in the Little White Books and learned to trust my intuition and personal insights.

 

Rootwood

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@AlanK do you keep a notebook of your card meanings and intuitions?

When I started studying I got a notebook that was divided into 5 sections with tabs.  First section  for major arcana, one page for each.  The next 4 sections for each suit, 2 pages assigned to each card. I was smart enough to jot my notes in pencil because I have erased and erased and erased!  Thanks for stopping by to read and chat.

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