Content Warning: Death Tarot Spread/Reading

[Guest Empathic_Cap]

Greetings,

I understand this type of reading and tarot spread is a sensentive topic as it talks about suicide for my reading and created the spread on a cause of a death. Now this is topic and spread is to be used for anyone who arent heavliy affected nor find this offence. Im not doing this to upset anyone in ANY shape or form, but death is a milestone that every living thing experiences regardless if you like to accept it as it is or not. Enough of the ranting heres a reading ive done earlier on today as I was in a dark state of mind. So heres how the spread works and the cards I have gotten for the reading. For further details I will be expanding my reading with further darker aspect on my daily draws with the link here shortly.

 

"What if my cause of death is a suicide?"

1). What is death?

7C

Death as a milestone in one's life cycle is seen as a wizard who emerge fantastic creations in many forms for any being whether its natural gifts such as being a gifted artist and so further and having specific flaws in our life time. But on a more personal deeper note I mustnt be distracted by flights of fancy.

 

2). What will I take with me?

Rx8P

I will be taking with me my excessive materialism.

 

3). What are my fears about death?

RxMoon

[faerybraids]

I just want to thank you for posting this because for some reason suicide's something I've never thought to read on myself. (At least, I don't think I have...maybe way back I did?) I've experienced suicidal ideation throughout my life and this feels like a good spread, especially with a couple tweaks to the wording for me, for if the thoughts aren't quite as fleeting as they normally are for me. Thanks for having the guts to post it.

 

Also, props for adding the CW and disclaimer. I've seen too many people in other places forget.

 

(Obligatory note: If anyone needs to talk, feel free to message me, though if it's urgent or an emergency or crisis situation please contact a local emergency line, suicide hotline or hospital instead because I could be slow to respond. Some places even have online crisis chats and text-based crisis lines now for those of us who can't make those phonecalls or get to a hospital in these situations. It's worth keeping these numbers and websites with you, like in your phone or on the back of an old business card in your wallet.)

[RavenOfSummer]

Empathic_Cap,

 

I'm glad you shared your reading with us, but I'm concerned with what the nature of your reading may indicate :( I really hope you are not contemplating suicide. We have only known you for a short time but you are part of our community, there is so much we want to learn from and share with you, and suicide would take that away forever. I understand that as you said, death is a natural part of the cycle of life. But there is a big difference between letting that cycle take its course, and cutting it short before it is meant to be.

 

If you are contemplating suicide, there are resources available that can help. I'm more familiar with the ones in the US and I know you're in AU, but I am certain similar resources are available. Please let us know that you're familiar with these resources, and promise that you will reach out to them if needed.

 

<3

[RavenOfSummer]

Support resources in Australia: https://www.lifeline.org.au/

 

<3

[sandrang123]

I can't echo Raven of Summer more. Tarot is an extremely useful tool to help aid our intuition and provide guidance in many manners, but,  that said, this post does worry me. This is especially true if you happen to be young and/or a minor. I've read and channeled since I was quite young (the channeling part, especially) and it can be very overwhelming, particularly when young. I encourage you to keep on your path with tarot and channeling and whatever your gifts have--we are here for that!--but I also encourage you to talk with someone you trust--a counselor, friend, family member, teacher. If you have no one around that you trust (and that is possible), then please also know there are numbers to dial.

 

Also, I know you've said you dabble in white and black witchcraft. When I was younger I did that, too, though I would encourage you to focus on the good/light aspect of your personality. There is already so much there to love. <3

 

Take good care of you, Dear One.

[Albadawn]

Empathic_Cap[/member], I would like to reiterate the concern shown by the other members who have posted here. If you have suicidal ideation - and the creation of this spread is a strong indicator that you do on some level - I urge you to get in touch with your local emergency services so that you can be helped. You do not have to follow through on these feelings and there are alternative solutions to them.

 

Please let us know you are okay. You can contact the mods directly using the link in my signature if you would prefer not to update publicly on your situation.

 

Thank you

Dawn

[Guest Empathic_Cap]

Greetings,

Now this spread can be used to read upon any cause of death along with suicide. This spread was inspired by a similar thread on AT upon this nature heres the link to the thread and spread

[Albadawn]

Empathic_Cap[/member], thank you so much for letting us know that you feel better today. This is good to hear. I still recommend contacting local services who can help you manage your mood and I feel it is important you do this sooner rather than later since you are experiencing such extremes.

 

You don't have to continue to suffer with this. Many mental health professionals offer sliding scale payment plans, and no one is going to refuse to help you if you don't have the means to pay right away.

 

Please keep in mind that while suicide may feel alluring and inevitable to you, it is the opposite. Severe depression will convince you that this is your only option and that everyone will be fine without you. This is not the truth and I urge you to contact your local emergency services if such thoughts and feelings arise for you again.

 

We care about you here and your contributions would be very missed if you stopped writing to us, so please keep in touch.

 

With compassion

Dawn

[Page of Ghosts]

I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. I struggle with suicidal ideation too, it comes and goes and has for over half of my life, but I'm a "complainer" sort of depressed person so it helps a lot for me just to complain out loud to someone about it, as well as naps when I get too overwhelmed. Hotlines are good for that and I hope you find a therapist that will work for you. Even with all the public health regulations in Norway it can be expensive before I get my "free card" at about 3000 NOK (so about 10 sessions in before they're free for the rest of the year, luckily my parents are pitching in because they know I need it and it's a bit much on my own) and the waiting lists are so long so I know getting help isn't always easy even when you understand you need it, and it's more accessible than in a lot of other countries. And suicide will always be a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Most people who have survived attempts say that just as they did it they regretted it instantly and that makes me so sad to know, that it was probably the case for those who lost their lives.

 

To comment a bit about your spread I get a strong impression that these reversed cards speak of so much lost potential. Potential for growth, for learning about the mysteries and what's hidden, potential to really work on and perfect a skill.

 

 

[Jewel]

Empathic_Cap, I am glad to hear you are feeling better today, and I reiterate all the support that others have offered.  As for death being a natural part of life, yes it is when it comes naturally. Suicide is not natural.  To those of you who do contemplate suicide please take the time to remember that the decision affects and will hurt others very deeply.  Please seek help as there is no price you can put on your life - it is invaluable without exception.  You matter, no matter what lies the depression tell you.

 

We had a suicide in my family, she was bi-polar, and all I can tell you is the devastation left behind is something that I am not sure her immediate family will ever recover from.  It will have everlasting emotional and psychological repercussions for the rest of their lives.

[Page of Ghosts]

Empathic_Cap, I am glad to hear you are feeling better today, and I reiterate all the support that others have offered.  As for death being a natural part of life, yes it is when it comes naturally. Suicide is not natural.  To those of you who do contemplate suicide please take the time to remember that the decision affects and will hurt others very deeply.  Please seek help as there is no price you can put on your life - it is invaluable without exception.  You matter, no matter what lies the depression tell you.

 

We had a suicide in my family, she was bi-polar, and all I can tell you is the devastation left behind is something that I am not sure her immediate family will ever recover from.  It will have everlasting emotional and psychological repercussions for the rest of their lives.

 

Yes, this. We have no way of knowing how our actions will impact the people around us who are left behind, and especially with depression it has a way of completely twisting things around. You might feel like a terrible burden or like people will be better off without you, but these are crafty lies from the depression. Not all you feel or think will be true when you're depressed, a lot of it will actually be very untrue so being critical of my own thoughts and emotions has helped a lot for me personally.

[Starlight]

The AN talked about either writing or talking to love ones about retirement as a cycle is becoming to an end. To read this meaning, I was surprised that the divine were giving me the message that things are all clear for the retirement I just need to either talk to love ones or write a letter. Where if things did end up going that way the Divine can shelter my love ones from most of the painful effects of this event.

.....

At this present time Im in a more positive mindset then I was yesterday.

Blessings,

 

It's good to hear that you're in a more positive mindset now, @Empathic_Cup.

 

Did you consider the possibility that the messages of "retirement" and the "cycle coming to an end" were not referring to a physical death but a more *spiritual* one? Like a calling to follow a hero's journey and to walk into the unknown, away from where you were? A calling to undertake a journey to expansion and healing and greater understanding?

 

Rumi said that the wounds are where the light enters you. And only someone who has been at the very depths of their being, like you are, can ever hope to understand another who is also there and who may need a helping hand to move back out into the light. It is only those who have navigated the darkness and moved out of it who can see and find the outstretched hands of those who are searching for help in navigating their way.

 

Your journey may help and/or inspire others.

 

I understand that money is a stumbling block, but there is help available - calling a suicide helpline and talking to someone there who understands would be a good first step. And I'm sure that they will be able to share more resources with you, specific to your part of the world and financial circumstances.

 

Hang in there, Empathic_Cup. I think everyone here who has connected with you (even if it's only online) would be heart broken if that light went out.

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest Empathic_Cap]

Greetings,

As stated earlier I've published this spread for the over look of a particular cause of death. I've use this particular cause of death as I was in the mind set in which makes the intentions of this reading accurate. Out of all due respect I appreciate the amount of support even but the reading wasn't created to seek attention and to make ppl feel sorry for me. But instead to use these cards to hopefully bring out some possible new meanings for each card and provide further in site for people who wish to do a reading upon this case of their own or to do a reading for someone else in which you are concerned about who is debating about this cause.

Again, I'm not trying to sound as if I'm being arrogant and ungrateful for all the support and positivity from others. But from my point of view it's making me feel as if I'm crying out for attention in which it isn't. I just want to provide my personal experience with everyone so they can hopefully take this experience and can be able to identify these particular elements in a reading.

Blessings,

[Saturn Celeste]

Enough said.  Your heartfelt reply was genuine and meant a lot to me because I do worry.  But also know that should you need someone to chat to, you have a family here.  You can always drop me a line (PM) and I will reply.  This is a very interesting spread and thank you for sharing it. ❤️

[Guest Empathic_Cap]

Enough said.  Your heartfelt reply was genuine and meant a lot to me because I do worry.  But also know that should you need someone to chat to, you have a family here.  You can always drop me a line (PM) and I will reply.  This is a very interesting spread and thank you for sharing it. ❤️

 

Greetings,

Thank you for your gentle approach of being straightforward as your reply also meant a lot to me as well. All I wanted was to simply share the spread and provide a reading of some sort to provide ppl who this spread will play out. Again thank you for the gesture it is very much appreciated.

Blessings,