Hello guys, it's me, Van! How are you all doing?

I hope everything is okay with y'all

Ok, i have a lot, really a lot to tell about this two (or three months). I know i promised to make my second and third analysis questions, but so much things happened (the end of this semester is a roller-coaster of crap and shitty ate same time wonderful and joyfully things were happening making my life really busy. THINGS ARE COMPLETLY INSANE OVER HERE!!!). So i decided to make a dump on the readings i recently did, starting for my second question (this will be divided in two parts).

•            Should I Look For The Love Of My Life Yesterday?
  • I would like to explain myself on why i did this one. Relationships are difficult to me and since my first boyfriend i have a lot of confidence and trust issues that's why i'm extremely direct when i want or need something, i'm in my second serious relationship, he's amazing and i love him with all my heart so this question came from my bestie and i thought: "well is a good one for practice and why should i be afraid?" so i did and the answer was.... well... surprisingly what i expect ( and what i wanted).
  • The first arcana i pick up was Temperance, i got really confused for a second, but after thinking a little i kind getting where this coming from, so as i said this arcana appears to tell me that i need to be calm and develop my patience skills (which i really need) regardless wanting true love or about the urge of evaluating my current relationship (the feeling i had that day).
  • The second one was The Tower and as soon it appeared everything made sense in my head. The Tower gave me a signal which made questioning myself. Do i really want to destroy or put everything i worked so hard to build with this man at risk just because i believe, or in this case, i need to believe that true love happens only in one way? If my answer is yes, then i would have to make my choice and put my two feet on the ground about it. Honestly i really thought on this one for two or three days, what it meant to me or what could possibly say to me.
  • The next one literally slapped me in face lol. I got The Strength. For sure i needed to think about my feelings on my boyfriend and on what i think love is supposed to be. I'm not going to find the love of my life in a trip. Relationships are extremely complex and it's something that demands a lot from you and your partner, that's why you need to make a decision, if you decided to leave and really go looking for this love of your life, than you should stay strong in your word and be prepared to lose everything. If not, it's time to grow up and take the time and confidence your relationship need to achive what you think true love means. And this two options need extremaly strength. But no, you're not gonna find the love of your life yesterday, because he's probably on your side today.

  POSITIONS                                                                                                     

THE STRENGHT (III)                                                                                          

THE TEMPERANCE (I)                                                                             THE TOWER (II)                    

• Advice For My Day.
  • After each session of questions i tried to get my advice for the day/week.
  • For that week i got The Sun which really helped me with the intrusive thoughts i had for a while. Essentially what i get from this arcana was a big everything is going to be okay, things will be better, just trust yourself and always keep your feith. Nothing is eternal, everything change.

• Will I Get This Job Opportunity Until The End Of The Month?
  • I got the job. This experience was, at least, sending shivers right down my spine even now, i ended up getting two job opportunities and was really difficult to choose since the two were good ones. I had the message of my first reading engraved in my head and in my heart. I worked it out with my boyfriend and got the time to understand each other a little bit more (a lot of conversations and monologues about our feelings on our routine). Things started to look good, when i question this i was nervous to start in my actual job.
  • I got The Death in this pick up, right in the moment i got the message, in order to get what i wanted things would have to finish from my side (things i had to do effectively get done) and things that are out of my control (i ended up discover that another person had to be dismissed for me start to work).
  • The second one was The Judgment, another metaphoric slap in my face. Evaluate things in order to make your choice! When you get your answer be calm and try to develop the patient needed for this kind of bureaucracy so this opportunity can accutally born in the right way.
  • Then i got The Star and again i learn how anxious i can be lol. It's already yours, but you need to make sure to be patient since this one has a lot of bureaucracies behind the paper. There's process that need to be fully terminated by me and that do not depend on me. But, the good luck is on my side and this opportunity should bring me a lot professional development.

POSITIONS                                                                                                            

THE STAR (III)                                                                                                                         

THE DEATH(I)                                                     THE JUDGMENT (II)                                                                              

  So this is just some of the questions, i'm preparing to do a ✨Boyfriend Session✨ since i started to pratice with him and somehow is funny but deep to. Take your time, read and please feel free to correct me or to elucidate anything.

Com Amor,

Van