Hello Everyone!

[Soul Light]

Hi!

My name's Soul Light and I am a beginner tarot reader who started tarot reading probably a month ago, but I haven't been practicing a lot for a few reasons.

But I would love to know more about the tarot!

 

I first got into tarot when my little sister showed me a pick-a-card reading on Youtube. It was so accurate that it intrigued me! Over time, I considered being a tarot reader and I was a little scared at first, but I made my first oracle deck out of index cards last year and was amazing how accurate it was! Although, I only asked a few questions and stopped using it... I don't have my DIY oracle deck anymore (not sure where it went after I moved...), but shortly after, I bought my first oracle deck called Affirmators!

 

I now have several oracle decks, and two tarot decks. I have trouble being confident in myself in readings, but that's why I would like to practice online first. I thought maybe joining this forum would help.  :)

 

A few things about me is that I believe in God, Angels, and Spirit guides, I just cannot explain why, but I feel like they are real. The belief of something that I can't see has got me through difficult times...

 

At the moment, I am sort of going through a Dark Night of the Soul, and when it first hit me, I had this great feeling of being given another chance to live and seeing the beauty of the world made me cry. Imagine being trapped and chained down in a dark cave for 50 years and finally having the chains come off and being freed into the sunlight. That was the feeling I got when it hit me. I would cry just knowing that I'm alive and that my heart is beating...Little things like that affected me so much....

 

I even had a past life reading from a tarot reader before and she said that a past life that's affecting me heavily is one where I had no freedom.

Every now and then I would get feelings as if that imprisoned self is still haunted and trapped, and other times, there are moments I breakdown and cry knowing that i'm free.

 

I often experience intense emotions, and mini Tower moments, but releasing the trapped feelings, acknowledging them, even if no one understands, is so relieving. It's like little by little i feel deadweight being lifted and it's just great <3 even if a little painful...

 

I still have SO much healing to do.=, I'm even trying to heal from past life stuff...

And even if I have profound thoughts or feelings sometimes, I still need to transform, to evolve, to heal, to awaken, to learn and to live. I have so many fears and doubts, that I know I am not where my higher self is. I have very low self-esteem, social anxiety, depression, and sort of a mental limitation that I got from my mom... In real life, my speech is more simple and stifled like I'm expressing eight of swords energy...

 

But what's important is that I'm learning to love myself and committing to that because it starts with you first before you can make any sort of difference in the outer world. Although, I don't think I can make any sort of difference in the outer world lol, but I just know I need to work on myself first before I can attract what's meant for me...

 

I believe we are all students and teachers in life. You attract the teacher when you're ready...and I realized I kinda rambled lol...

 

Anyways, I hope to learn some great things here X/

Have a lovely day! <3

[Endy]

Welcome! Thank you for such an honest and open introduction. It's really great to meet you, Soul Light  <3

[Soul Light]

Hi Endy! Thanks for the welcome!

 

I love your cat picture! i have an orange tabby as well :eek: <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

[Endy]

I love your cat picture! i have an orange tabby as well :eek: <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Nice!!! Orange tabbies are awesome  :kitty:

[Soul Light]

I love your cat picture! i have an orange tabby as well :eek: <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Nice!!! Orange tabbies are awesome  :kitty:

 

They are!! I used to be friends with an Orange tabby stray until it got adopted by someone. He or she was the sweetest cat ever!!  <3

What's your little sweetheart's name?

Mine is Sunny and he's about 7 years old <3

[AJ-ish/Sharyn]

welcome home Soul!

[Endy]

They are!! I used to be friends with an Orange tabby stray until it got adopted by someone. He or she was the sweetest cat ever!!  <3

What's your little sweetheart's name?

Mine is Sunny and he's about 7 years old <3

Sunny sounds so sweet! My orange girl is named Phoenix, and she is 8! Though this picture of her was a couple of years ago

[joy]

Hello Soul Light welcome to the TT&M Family  X/

Thank you for sharing so much personal stuff with us. You came to the right place, we are a very caring family here  <3

[Guest Night Shade]

Hello and welcome Soul Light[/member] !  I'm sorry you're going through a dark time.  Your intro really resonated with me; it almost felt like I was reading about myself.  I'm trying to learn to love myself too, and also suffer from low self-esteem.  And I'm not good at talking to people in real life either.

 

Your Spirit Guides are most definitely real - trust in them and let them comfort you!  I know this because I have dragon guides - in fact, one of them is actually named Sunny, like your cat!  :)

 

Orange tabbies are the best.  I used to take care of a stray one too, and he was the most loving cat ever.  (I called him Creamsicle).

 

Welcome again, and enjoy the forum. :kitty:

[Thoughtful]

Hello Soul Light a warm welcome to our family.

Thank you for sharing your story l found it very moving  :blovekiss:

[Soul Light]

welcome home Soul!

 

Thank you for welcoming me to the family =') <3

[Soul Light]

They are!! I used to be friends with an Orange tabby stray until it got adopted by someone. He or she was the sweetest cat ever!!  <3

What's your little sweetheart's name?

Mine is Sunny and he's about 7 years old <3

Sunny sounds so sweet! My orange girl is named Phoenix, and she is 8! Though this picture of her was a couple of years ago

 

Hehe, thanks, he's my cutie patootie  <3 <3 <3

And aww she's about my own cat's age! Phoneix is such an awesome name!!  <3

[Soul Light]

Hello Soul Light welcome to the TT&M Family  X/

Thank you for sharing so much personal stuff with us. You came to the right place, we are a very caring family here  <3

 

Aw thank you, I already feel so much love <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

[Soul Light]

Hello and welcome Soul Light[/member] !  I'm sorry you're going through a dark time.  Your intro really resonated with me; it almost felt like I was reading about myself.  I'm trying to learn to love myself too, and also suffer from low self-esteem.  And I'm not good at talking to people in real life either.

 

Your Spirit Guides are most definitely real - trust in them and let them comfort you!  I know this because I have dragon guides - in fact, one of them is actually named Sunny, like your cat!  :)

 

Orange tabbies are the best.  I used to take care of a stray one too, and he was the most loving cat ever.  (I called him Creamsicle).

 

Welcome again, and enjoy the forum. :kitty:

 

Thank you Night Shade!!!!

It's a difficult journey to love oneself, especially when we have low-self esteem. But the destination has to be worth it, we deserve that love for ourselves as well <3 Don't give up!! I'm wishing you a lot of luck and strength on your journey, I'm cheering for us both <3

 

And omg that's really amazing that one of your dragon guides is named Sunny! <3 I don't know why that made me smile so much!! ;D Yes, I'm so thankful for my guides and everyone who's helped me made it this far <3 I'd be completely lost without them <3

 

Creamsicle is such a precious name =') <3

[Soul Light]

Hello Soul Light a warm welcome to our family.

Thank you for sharing your story l found it very moving  :blovekiss:

 

Aw thank you <3

so much love on this forum, it makes me feel so warm inside <3

[Guest Night Shade]

Hello and welcome Soul Light[/member] !  I'm sorry you're going through a dark time.  Your intro really resonated with me; it almost felt like I was reading about myself.  I'm trying to learn to love myself too, and also suffer from low self-esteem.  And I'm not good at talking to people in real life either.

 

Your Spirit Guides are most definitely real - trust in them and let them comfort you!  I know this because I have dragon guides - in fact, one of them is actually named Sunny, like your cat!  :)

 

Orange tabbies are the best.  I used to take care of a stray one too, and he was the most loving cat ever.  (I called him Creamsicle).

 

Welcome again, and enjoy the forum. :kitty:

 

Thank you Night Shade!!!!

It's a difficult journey to love oneself, especially when we have low-self esteem. But the destination has to be worth it, we deserve that love for ourselves as well <3 Don't give up!! I'm wishing you a lot of luck and strength on your journey, I'm cheering for us both <3

 

And omg that's really amazing that one of your dragon guides is named Sunny! <3 I don't know why that made me smile so much!! ;D Yes, I'm so thankful for my guides and everyone who's helped me made it this far <3 I'd be completely lost without them <3

 

Creamsicle is such a precious name =') <3

 

Thank you, Soul Light[/member] .  I'm cheering for us both too!  <3 ((

[WendyLouWho]

Welcome!  I am new here as well. Loved reading your intro.  Thank you for being so honest and open. I know about those dark nights of the soul. I believe tarot is a wonderful tool for letting your inner wisdom speak to you and guide you through.

 

Glad you’re here!

[HermitWriter]

Welcome aboard!

 

It can take a while to feel comfortable with what the cards are saying and how they speak to you. There are a lot of resources out there, to the point that it can get overwhelming. Just sitting with the cards and looking at what they show, rather than worrying about trying to figure out their meaning right away, can be very comforting though. It took me a while to realize that some of the "scary" cards could actually be very affirming and empowering. Once we started clicking though? It was a pretty good feeling.

 

I hope you enjoy yourself here. Happy reading!

[Soul Light]

WendyLouWho[/member] Thank you for the welcome! We're glad to have you hear as well!! It's nice to meet another newcomer!  ^-^ Tarot definitely is amazing at letting out inner voice speak  <3 I have been amazed always at what comes up for when I ask what I need to know today  ^-^

 

HermitWriter[/member]

Hi, thank you!!  <3

Yes, I'm still learning the cards, and sometimes when I do a reading on myself, I interpret what I can, but days later, I suddenly receive more pieces or a better interpretation to what I had earlier!

I actually get scared doing readings because of all the possible ways a card can be read. I'm too worried about how inaccurate I'll be, so that's why I'd want to learn with people who know better than me, so I can receive the help I need, and so far everyone's been so nice, so I hope my confidence will increase overtime.  ^-^

[Jewel]

Hi Soul Light and welcome to TT&M.  Tarot is wonderful for self reflection and personal development, I use it quite a bit for that.  Glad to have you with us.