Hi i think its time to introduce myself

[MoonBear]

Hi everyone 

As I said above I think it’s time to introduce myself the last days have been pretty busy so I haven’t been able to write a longer text as my journey to and with Tarot  is a long one

 

in 2001 I came in touch with witchcraft/paganism and in the end of 2001 I joined a coven as a guest after three months they said I wasn’t taken on as a permanent member but I still stayed friends with some of them everybody in there was reading tarot it was like a kind of in thing you just did when you were in these kind of circles 

So I looked online what was available in Germany but a long time I didn’t find anything that I liked either the cards were to “comicy” for my liking or other women were depicted very kitschy which I didn’t like too

in 2003 I found the VisionQuest tarot which is native American themed which I really liked after that I found the goddess oracle deck in an esoteric shop close by which also helped me a lot it’s really a pity that I lost it in my many relocations I had since that time

A long time and I only had these two decks and was happy with them also I couldn’t really afford buying new decks all the time

 

in 2010 I had a big crisis and after that I stopped with everything spiritual because I was questioning my whole life including my spiritual path

in 2013 I started with my spiritual path again but I had said goodbye to a lot of stuff that wasn’t right for me anymore so one year later I ventured into the field of tarot again after I also started to work with Runes  

I didn’t want to use my old VisionQuest tarot any more because it was connected to native American spirituality to which I had said goodbye as well because at that time I also was confronted with the topic of cultural appropriation

so in the end I bought a norse mythology themed deck from voenix  I don’t remember the name at the moment because it is currently properly in some boxes that I have stored in another place but I didn’t really like it because the women were depicted very non-inclusive meaning very thin and pretty women the same age no diversity at all this is what I don’t like in a tarot deck

in 2017 I moved 700 km from my hometown to free myself from my abusive parents or didn’t leave me alone although I had my own apartment in my own life

these past three years my life has been very busy and through several circumstances I stopped using the Tarot 

A couple of weeks ago I thought about a new kind of meditation I could try and thought I could just take a card and meditate on what ever comes up

I watched a couple of videos and through i’m going deeper into the topic I discovered that there was just so much more than I had ever known before I just looked at the card and worked with what came up which did work in some ways but I never really cared for the meanings that were in the books or online so I decided that I really wanted to learn which ever system I would choose in the end

so I looked into a couple of decks but the ones that I liked were very expensive in Germany and my budget is not very big at the moment so through a video I discovered lenormand which is funny because a friend of mine works with these cards professionally on a line but I never asked her about them or looked at them  

the symbols really spoke to me and when I read that this system is more for simple readings I couldn’t understand that because although the meanings are direct I still could see many layers of each card

 

so I ordered a set on Amazon and the package came yesterday although I couldn’t have them in my hands until today because I wasn’t there 

but because of interest I still looked for other decks on aeclectictarot and rediscovered the giants tarot  which I have been looking at since 2016 and wanted to have just as long but to order anything from the USA is just so expensive because you have the price of the cards themselves and then the price for shipping 

but my lovely partner show me looking at these cards online and was so kind as to give me half of the money so I could afford it and I’m so happy that I could order the set a couple of days ago and I am so excited when it will arrive because I have never ordered anything from the USA before and I hope I don’t have to go to the customs (i hope that’s the right word in English) so wish me luck

 

so I hope to learn a lot here and find like-minded people also more inclusive people because I am non-binary and there are some pretty Conservative people in some Esoteric forums 

 

Edited June 4, 2020 by MoonBear

[FindYourSovereignty]

Welcome, MoonBear, and thank you for sharing your experiences with tarot coming in and out of your life. How nice that you have found a connection with the Lenormand deck. 

 

If you are able to take photos of your new decks we'd love to see them here.

 

I am celebrating my first year of learning to read tarot and very grateful to have found this forum to assist me in the process. It is a wonderful group.

[joy]

Hello @MoonBear welcome to the TT&M Family   One thing I know for sure about our Family is, that include everyone. Hope you will feel 'at home' quickly ❤️

[Annabelle]

Welcome to TT&M, MoonBear!

[MoonBear]

Hi everyone

thanks for the warm welcome I really feel at home here already although I don’t know much about tarot I still can contribute and there’s a lot of things to talk about here which is great

[stephanelli]

8 hours ago, MoonBear said:

Hi everyone

thanks for the warm welcome I really feel at home here already although I don’t know much about tarot I still can contribute and there’s a lot of things to talk about here which is great

I'm late to the welcome party, but welcome 😄 thank you for sharing your experiences with us!